wow. I haven't written in here for a long time. I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I have really nothing to say. Except of one thing. I think I'm afraid to let myself be happy. And I'm not so sure why. I think it's because I'm scared to 'lose' my happiness again, if that makes any sense. It's almost like I rather be content then happy. I don't know. I don't make any sense. Nevermind.

This weekend had been awesome.

Wensday night- I had cheerleading practice and then after Allie came over and we watched Gilmore Girls and then went to bed pretty early because we are cool like that. I love cheerleading. I love all the girls, and the friendships we have, it's amazing. And we will hopefully kick major ass this year!

Thursday-Allie left fairly early and then I had to clean and get ready for people to come over to carve pumpkins. I picked up Megan around 1 and then we ran errands and baked food for the people coming over. It was a lot of fun. I carved "HI" into my pumpkin, yes I am pretty cool. For some reason I was really quiet. I wasn't my normal obnoxious self. Wonder why. ha. we all know why.

Friday-got up fairly early and tried to do homework and stuff but i couldnt concentrate. Becuase something wouldn't get out of my head. So instead I made cool cds=] and i went and got my oil changed in my car and took its emissions test er w.e && me and my mom went out to lunch. Then I went over to ninas house and drove to the zoo because she was dancing there. I watched her dance and then we went out to taco bell. Met up with chelsea there and then went back to ninas house stayed up till like 4 talking and such. I love those girls.

Saturday-Had to get up at 8 to go home and do my homework && the work for my dad. But guess what? I didn't. Once again i could not concentrate. Ugh. So i decided to get ready for my assistant coaches wedding and then met up with nina and chelsea for lunch. Came home and nicole v picked me up to go to the wedding. The ceremony was amazing my coach looked so beautiful && her husband looks like Brad Pitt. Oh man is he highly attractive=p. Then after the wedding we had 5 hours to kill before the reception. So the cheerleaders went out to eat at applebees then went to Bay View Mall and then went downtown and drove around for a bit. Got starbucks, walked around then went to the reception where we danced like idiots. It was amazing. I love those girls. They are my family. It's true.After I came home and went to bed.

 

Sunday- I am here typing this and avoiding my homework cuz of corse I cant concentrate on any of it.

 

i should really go start my homework

 

hope everyone elses weekend went well